I was sitting in a dining room when I (thought it was safe and) told a man who had taught Bible class
that I felt I’d be speaking on stage.
He tilted his head and patted me on the shoulder, “Yeah… but if He’s not….”
I was only asking for prayers. That’s the only reason I told him.
It was a small group meeting and – prayer is part of it, right?
But when he didn’t believe me, I was faced with another situation entirely: A test of faith.
Did I actually believe what I was saying I know? Or did I not?
I looked at him (not aware back then of his condescending tone) and after deep thought for a minute,
I said again, “But… He is.” I just …knew.
And again, this faith-lacking, prideful, young Bible class teacher looked into my eyes, shook his head and said with a smirk (clearly now I realize it was proof he didn’t believe me) and patted me again on the shoulder, “Yeahh….but if He’s NOT….”
What I read from Genesis to Revelation
is that God has always used lesser known
messy people with messy lives
to carry out His Divine purpose.
I’ve had something like 7 years to think about that moment.
He didn’t seem to believe God would choose someone like me
(clearly nobody in this man’s eyes)
Kerri Valor shares "That's Really Why I'm Here" in it's entirety on her blog:
Kerri's 7 years of waiting coincide with MomPro's 7 years of becoming;
we don't believe in coincidences.
God sees everything and nothing is wasted.
Kerri Valor and her daughters
are currently waiting in faith in Northwest Washington
for God to open doors to Alaska.
They welcome your prayers,
as well as financial partnership,
to bring into fruition the homeless shelter
God has pressed upon their hearts